Thursday, March 11, 2010

Still Trying To Quit

Have I mentioned yet how much quitting sucks?

I've rambled more about my suffering here.

Diary of a Smoker/Non-Smoker

I'm still in transition. What can I say?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

How I Quit Smoking: Day 2

Thirty six hours. They say the first week is the hardest week. Non smokers have no idea how hard the first week is.

I'm already asking myself why I wanted to stop. That is when I'm restraining myself to keep from putting my fist through something.

Ever notice on television they make it look fairly simple. If you want to quit chew this gum, take this pill, join this program.

The worst part is the withdrawal symptoms. Nicotine is a drug. Weaning your body off of nicotine is no picnic. In fact I would rather have my toenails pulled one by one.

Symptoms at 36 hours: Difficulty focusing. Hot and cold chills. Shaking hands. Restlessness. Irritability. Making effigies of former bosses and torturing them. Punching out the next person who says 'You're doing the right thing. You'll get through this'.

Monday, March 1, 2010

How I Quit Smoking: Day 1

Seven hours. Seven hours since I smoked my last cigarette and put on my first nicotine patch.


Why did I decide to stop smoking? Again? Well if I think of the money I save is a good idea. I am... rather was spending almost $35 a week on cigarettes. I was up to almost two packs a day which is not good.

They say that each time you try to stop smoking your chances improve.

I once quit for six weeks through a program funded by my HMO at the time and was doing was rather well until my mother went into the hospital. With the travel and th stress of dealing with her condition I started back smoking.

Then there was the time I tried to quit cold turkey without help and within 36 hours my husband who has never smoked a day in his life went out and bought me cigarettes. He said it was for the sake of him and our son. He said I'm an evil bitch when I quit cold turkey without help.

I have tried to quit on and off over the past years. The thing is, the decision to quit smoking had to be mine and mine along. There is nothing worse than having a nonsmoker or former smoker going on a self righteous lecture about the evils of smoking.

More tomorrow.